Saturday, October 30, 2010

Down 2.4

I was very excited to see a 2.4 loss on the scale this morning. I am very happy to report that I kept up my momentum today as well. I did a quick resistance training workout and then I ran a mile. I felt amazing. My arms are a little sore right now though :) My eating was great until dinner. I was so hungry. I know better! But I had my yummy soup, and then ate 4 fish sticks. Which wasn't so bad. But Neika had a fundraiser that I bought cookie dough from. I promised her we would make cookies. I have had 5. Now they aren't very big, but 5 is a lot more than I have had in over a week. And way more than I needed.

I am tired tonight, so this is about as much thought as I can put into a blog tonight. Sorry! I should be back to my chipper self tomorrow :)

Friday, October 29, 2010

Running makes me...

Feel like I can do anything! I absolutely love the feeling I get after a run.

Now, right now I can't even run a whole mile at a time. I am still doing intervals at this point. Since I rested my knee it has been doing SO much better. It doesn't hurt at all anymore. So I thought I would give it a try today. I popped in a DVD I hadn't seen before and warmed up for a about .25 of a mile. Then I covered the display on the treadmill with a towel and I ran. It's actually the only way I can run on the treadmill. Being able to see the time tick by drives me nuts and makes the time move slower. Having the movie on definitely helped me in being able to run for longer periods of time as I was distracted. I did 2 miles in 31 minutes. I know it's not where I was last year, but you know what??? It's better than I was doing two months ago! And I feel great! I am definitely making progress. I love love love how I feel when I run. A great workout always makes me feel better about myself. Not only do I feel great just because I ran, but I begin to remember all the reasons to love myself as I am right now.

Sometimes I get so hung up on who/what I want to be that I forget that I am still going to be the same me. I have a hard time receiving a compliment right now because I honestly don't believe them (when they are talking about my physical appearance). I get caught up on the fact that I am not where I want to be yet. But I need to remember that I am not going to get where I want to be without accepting where I am right now. I am slowly learning to love myself where I am at right now. This is really tough for me. I decided a month or so ago that whenever my husband complimented me that I needed to just say thank you. Instead of my usual eye roll, whatever you say attitude that I had before. It's taking time to adjust, but it makes a big difference for me. I need to believe him that he thinks I am beautiful. I do believe him. I just don't think it about myself yet.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

So incredibly tired

I feel like I am dead on my feet right now. I could blame it on the fact that I have 10 week old baby...

But he sleeps through the night most of the time. I could blame it on insomnia...

Except I am sleeping so soundly lately that I sleep through the alarm clock. I could blame it on just lack of sleep...

Except I get a good solid 6 hours most nights. Well, maybe it's just not enough for me. I could try to go to bed earlier, but then there goes any time during the day that I can spend doing what I want to do or spending time with they hubby. Typically I am in bed by 11 and up between 5-7 for a baby feeding. I get up around 7 for good in order to get Neika to the bus stop on time.

I have no energy to workout, no time to take a nap. Today I had every intention of working out. It just never happened. I did however, manage to make 3 different new dishes today. I have a TON of dried beans, peas, and lentils in my pantry. Yesterday I soaked and cooked a pound of white beans, today I put them into 2 different recipes. One was really good, Pasta Fagioli, and the other one had no flavor at all. I will need to play around with it to get it to be edible. It's a good recipe base, I just need to add something...still trying to figure out how to spin it into something I will really enjoy. The third one I am trying is a white chicken chili. If it ends up good I can post the recipe for it. But it won't be done until tomorrow. Gotta love crock pot recipes!

So for being extremely tired today I did manage to accomplish a lot. This was due to the help of my mother in law as she watched the little ones for me during parts of the process. It was also the only thing keeping me awake! If I sat down I felt like I would start to doze. I knew I couldn't fall asleep with a 10 week old and a 2 year old running around the house (the 2 year old was running, not the 10 week old...he just kind of laid there, just wanted to clarify this!) So I feel like I didn't accomplish anything because I didn't actually do what I set out to do. What I need to do is focus on the fact that I have 3 very nutritious meals that I can feed my family ready to go. I have been really working on making food to freeze and I am doing fairly well with this task. I am learning to really love working in the kitchen and trying out new recipes. I think I have tried something new every day this week! It's been a blast! Now if I could just get enough energy to actually workout...

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Quick update tonight

I was dreading doing a blog tonight...not because I had a bad day, but because I am so freaking exhausted! But blogging daily is one of my challenge goals. Then I realized that not every post needs to be forever long. So I will try to make this short and sweet since once I start typing I tend to get carried away :)

Today went well, it was just incredibly long. It started of with snow. Great. I really don't like cold weather. Not sure why I live in Minnesota! Anyway, food was great today. We went to my parents for dinner before church and my mom made spaghetti. Since she is gluten free I ended up choosing her brown rice noodles over the regular white pasta. Great choice! They were awesome! I might try to use that instead of whole wheat pasta (which I only use because I know it's better for me). I have always preferred regular angel hair pasta over anything else, but these were incredible! I had a nice portion and one slice of bread. Bad part was that I added crushed red pepper. I added a little too much of it...ended up with another piece of bread and a glass of 2% milk since that's all they had. I only poured myself about half a glass though. I felt really full after dinner. I think it was due to the extra piece of bread.

Had to take a rest day for workout today since I literally had no time. And I am going to head to bed shortly since I keep having to retype words here...I keep messing up because my eyes are crossing trying to see the computer screen! Good night and I hope everyone had a great day today!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Another successful day

I am proud to say that today was another successful day. Especially since it started out really rocky.

Sean was up in the middle of the night, which of course meant that I was up for awhile. So when the hubby's alarm clock went of this morning apparently I never heard it. At least not until the fourth or fifth time it went off! This mean we were about 20 minutes behind schedule on a day that I can't afford to be behind schedule. It's the one day a week that after the bus stop, I actually have plans for me. I get to go to MOPS a (Mother's of Preschoolers) and meet with other mom's. Seeing that I don't have a single friend right now (other than my mom or my sister) being able to make on this particular morning is important to me. It's pretty much the only social opportunity I have right now. Anyway, the mom's always provide breakfast foods. The spread ranges from egg bakes, hashbrown cheesy potatoes, fresh fruit and veggies, homebaked goods, and other things that are not really on my "plan". Usually I eat before I go so I won't eat there...or at least much. This morning sleeping in too late meant that I missed breakfast. I HATE missing breakfast! I went in knowing I would be starving. I also knew that I could make the right choices if I really wanted to. So I had very small portions of the things that might not be that great for me. I took a variety of foods. But even when I was still hungry I did not take anymore.

I know that it was a horrible breakfast for me because I was starving by the time I got home for lunch, and even my nutritious leftovers from last nights AMAZING dinner didn't fill me up! So with my new found knowledge of nutrition and how my body reacts to food, I decided not to eat anything extra. I put my energy into making different nutritious snacks in the kitchen. I tried making Roni's Pumpkin Oatmeal Cups which turned out really nummy. I will definitely be making them again. The 2 year old ate 2 of them and kept asking for more all day long! I also baked some chick peas for a nice little salty snack.

After picking my oldest up from the bus stop, I came home and made a really scrumptious dinner. Chicken (I try out a new chicken recipe almost every time!) which turned out really good, brown rice, peas, and a salad with mandarin oranges. I normally don't blog about my food, but when it's really good, I usually like to share!

The weather today has been absolutely horrible, so that nixed doing anything outside with the kiddos. I also didn't know when I would get a workout in since it's Tuesday, which mean's Biggest Loser and Parenthood. This is the only night that I plan to sit and watch tv. But I fed Sean at 7, and as soon as he was done, I changed into workout clothes and hopped on the treadmill. I brought my workout clothes down with me so I didn't have the excuse of not wanting to go upstairs for them. I did a little over 20 minutes because I wanted to be able to join the #fitblog chat tonight. I managed to run for about 3 minutes of it. I didn't want to overdo it since my knee had been hurting. I feel like I did all right!

I am very proud of myself for making today be great even though I normally would have decided today would be a throw away day just because I missed breakfast! I really enjoyed my day. So Day 4 is done! And I am loving it!! :)

Monday, October 25, 2010

And the mystery is SOLVED!!

So in all our efforts to locate my shoe (i.e., tearing apart the basement) we never thought to turn the treadmill on. I had orignally left my running shoes on the treadmill. The girls had set up a "tent" using the treadmill as part of it (I told them not to, but they did it anyway). My daughter's friend, who is 6, was walking on the treadmill without it being on, just using her body weight to make the belt move. Somehow my shoe got stuck underneath the belt and went into the front of the treadmill! I turned it on to walk for my warm up tonight and heard a kathunk from under the treadmill and it slowed down. I turned it off and looked underneath...lo and behold there was my shoe! I almost cried I was so excited!

So I decided to do the EA Active...thankfully because had I done the Shred I never would have turned the treadmill on! I am feeling pretty awesome tonight! Oh, and I did discover tonight what has been hurting my knee...the kick ups. When they have you do fast kick ups it puts extra strain on my knee. So I will have to do something else instead of those and maybe I will get back to running next week! EEEK!! I am super pumped!!!

Day 3 and still going strong

Typically when I participate in a challenge it is around the 3rd or 4th day that things usually start to go downhill for me. I am determined to change that with this challenge!

Several of my goals have been quite easy to keep on track with. And some of them are a little more difficult just because I seem to have a hard time finding time in my day to workout. It was icky and cold out today, so no walk with the little ones. I need to find some sort of activity to do during the morning with the two small ones. Something indoors where I don't have to spend a lot (or any!) money. So I am still working on that.

Today went really smooth to start with. Things always seem to fall apart once I pick my oldest up from the bus stop. It's always a difficult process to make dinner. The 2 year old insists on helping me in kitchen...helping is not necessarily the right word for what she does! Anyway, tonight was no exception. I made Deep Dish Crescent Pizza Casserole that Roni spoke so highly of. I subbed tomatoes for the mushrooms and I used turkey sausage. It was to die for! Oh I loved it! I don't usually like zucchini...ok, so I pretty much hate it. Except zucchini bread, but that's a whole other topic. Anyway, it turned out so yummy! The only person that didn't like it was the 2 year old, but she was really tired and when she gets tired she doesn't eat anything. Neika even liked it! Mine ended up browner on top, but it was delish. It will definitely go on my list of recipes to rotate through! I am loving all the new, healthy recipes I am getting from fellow bloggers and tweeties.

I plan on working out tonight...possibly the 30 day shred once Sean is in bed. Either that or the EA Active. The shoe is still missing so I have to make due with the ones that are too big.

Oh, and TOM has definitely arrived...trumpets blaring and banners waving arrived. Bummer. I guess it's not all that bad, but when it's been gone for 11 months it kinda sucks when it comes back! So I assume that the uptick this morning had to do with that. My size "16" jeans (which are actually 18) from Old Navy wouldn't stay up even with a belt. I was getting so annoyed with them. My mom and sister are both losing weight, they are about 10 pounds ahead of me (their in the 180s already, and both are taller than me). So my mom gave me 2 pairs of jeans. A real size 16 and a size 14. The 16 are perfect and the 14's are only a little snug.

Well, I'm off to go workout...maybe I can get it in before I Sean goes to bed which will give me more time to knit later! I updated yesterdays numbers in my Challenge tab for the 33 Day Challenge.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The day is not over til it's over

I had a rough day. So to speak. It wasn't rough as far as the challenge goes. Not really. The hubby got on my every last nerve since last night. I hate that!

So last night I did manage to get about an hours worth of knitting done. I am hoping that with my goal to do it every day I might manage to actually finish this blanket. When I do I will post a pic so I can share it with everyone! Anyway, the hubby was on his computer until 2 am! So this meant that I didn't get any extra rest this morning, he needed it. He got it yesterday too. Typically we take turns on the day he sleeps in, one day I sleep in. This time I didn't get any extra sleep at all! I was a little annoyed. But that wasn't the kicker...the kicker was when he got up and got right back on his computer! Now, we have a 2 year old and a 2 month'd think he would do something to help! Ugh! However, I did not let my annoyance with him overflow into my eating. I ate really well all day today. I might have one more little snack this evening still, but I doubt it. The later it gets, the less likely I am to eat because I don't like eating too close to bedtime. The only thing that ended up being affected today was my workout. I was going to go to my mom's for a walk, but we ended up not walking. The 2 month old has had a tummy ache this afternoon/evening and I didn't get to do anything except try to comfort a screaming baby. He is finally sleeping in his swing at the moment, but I don't expect that to last very long!

So all in all, the day wasn't lost. Healthy eating always makes me feel better! And I still have time to do some sort of workout, but I think I will take a day off and try again tomorrow. It's no big deal, yet. However, the day isn't done! There are still hours left for me to accomplish at least 2 more things! I plan on knitting for 30 minutes while watching a movie, maybe I will walk for 30 minutes first...

I was at my mom's for dinner tonight since the hubby is at BWW for the Viking/Packer game. She made tilapia and rice. Yummy! I was going to make chicken and rice, so this was right up my alley for the evening. The only thing that would have made it better is if it were brown rice instead of white rice. Oh well. It was still good.

I was amazed to see an almost 2 pound difference between today and yesterday on the scale, but it was definitely in the right direction! I only post my official weight on Saturday's, so I will just see if we can make it lower by then! For the 33 Day Challenge I will record my weight daily, but I will only record pounds lost on Saturdays.

Day 1 of 33 numbers:
CE 2/55
RT 0/15
CT 1/20
WL 0/8
PG1 1/33
PG2 1/22
PG3 1/33

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Day 1 of Challenge

The mystery of the Disappearing Shoe saga continues today. Still is nowhere to be found! So this morning involved going to the in-laws house (where we used to live) to find an old pair of gym shoes. I found 2 pairs...a 7.5 and an 8.5...guess what size I am??? Yeah, that would be an 8. Go figure. So I went with the pair that was too big and tied them super tight. It worked out ok for what I needed them for today.

So this morning I was very excited to report a 195.4 on the scale. Especially with TOM around, this number is still trending in the right direction. I haven't seen anything lower than that for way too long! I am really excited to be farther away from the 200s these days. I can't wait until I just never see that number again (sometimes it pops up after a bad few days of extra sodium). Anyway, I woke up super pumped to do this challenge. There is just something about doing a challenge with other people that keeps me more motivated. Yesterday I posted my goals for the Healthier Me in 33 challenge. Today I managed to convince the hubby that we really needed to get out of the house. Our 2 year old is too in love with the television these days, so I really wanted to do something out of the house. So we loaded the kids up (just the younger 2 today) and headed to the inlaws (because I HAD to have shoes!). By their house is a great path beside the lake and a great park, so we took the long way around to get to the park. All in all I walked about an hour. And at a good pace, not some liesurely walk. And there were hills. Several of them. I was pushing the stroller. I felt like I got a great workout in with that walk. I wish I could run, but the doc recommended not yet, so walking it is! I will begin running again once my knees don't hurt. So I count this as one of my cardio goals. :)

Food was pretty good today. I did have 2 healthy eats, breakfast and dinner. I am not too sure about lunch as it was provided my mother in law. She made turkey chili and I had about a cup and a half. It was pretty yummy. I ended up having too much cheese during that meal, making my calories pretty high for lunch, but I still think I did pretty well! We also had my grandpa's 80th birthday and their 60th wedding anniversary party to go to. I had one very small piece of cake there. Nothing overboard. So I am feeling pretty good about myself! As soon as I am done here, I am off to work on my knitting project :) I am almost done with this blanket that I have been working on for about 6 months now. I can't wait to finish it and start working on the one for my little man!

Friday, October 22, 2010

Goals for new challenge

Ok, so I thought about some different goals for Samantha's 33 Day Challenge and I came up with one's that I think are doable for me. I may have to invest in a new pair of shoes since one of my $130 pair of Nike shoes has mysteriously disappeared. The hubby and I are completely dumbfounded about this. We have completely torn apart the basement trying to find it. Grrr. I am sooo frustrated about this! But I will not let this keep me from meeting my goals. I will see if I can find my old gym shoes to use...I don't even know if they will fit! They are still over at the old house...

Anyway! Here are the goals that I have set for the next 33 days :)

Clean Eats 0/55/66
Resistance Training 0/15
Cardio Training 0/20
Weight Loss 0/8
Personal Goal 1 Knitting at least 30 minutes a day 0/33
Personal Goal 2 Do one active thing with the kids during the week 0/22
Personal Goal 3 Blog daily 0/33

Now knowing how I feel about challenges I am going to focus and give it my all. I know that there a few other amazing women participating in this challenge as well which should make it more motivating! I look forward to tweeting my progress daily and blogging my successes. Here's to a great 33 days!!!

I wonder no longer :)

So I did eventually figure out why I was a bottomless pit yesterday!

There is good news and bad news...but mostly good news.

So the bad news is that having the Mirena placed triggered my "time of the month" (TOM). This is bad news because I am nursing and I was REALLY hoping it would stay away for 6 months like it did last time. Oh well. It's not horrible, it's just not great. Good news is that TOM explains why I was starving all day yesterday! It totally makes sense. I had cramps this morning but the other good news is because of the Mirena, TOM is really, really, really light. Like I almost didn't even notice light. I can totally handle this! More good news: the scale showed almost a 3 pound difference since yesterday morning. Which means all the weight I thought I gained was indeed water weight. Awesome! I feel so much better about all this! In the bad news department....I still can't find my other shoe!! Geez!

However, I did go for a short, liesurely walk with the kids. It wasn't much, but at least it was something! I did enjoy being outside. I will try and take them out tomorrow in the new double stroller. I also heard about a 33 Day Challenge that I am absolutely looking forward to! I need to write out some goals for myself and I will post them later tonight. I am really excited to be part of this challenge! I know, I know, I usually hate challenges. I still hate them. This one I willing to go for. Not sure what makes this one different. I do know that I am going to give it all I've got and if I stumble one day then I will move on and try harder the next day. I just really need to find my shoe! Either that or find a yoga DVD to do so I don't need shoes :)

Thursday, October 21, 2010

I wonder...

Two weeks ago I was feeling absolutely satisfied with my food choices. I wasn't hungry after eating a meal, and I didn't feel the need to go back for seconds.

This week it doesn't seem to matter how much I eat. I feel like a bottomless pit.

The difference?? Well on Monday I had the Mirena put in. I know that one of the "side effects" can be weight gain. I happen to disagree with this. Weight gain shouldn't be a side effect unless it makes you gain water weight which is completely out of your control. I think it should be "causes excessive hunger". That makes more sense to me. This means that even though it makes me feel hungry, I have to ability to keep myself from eating myself silly. It doesn't make it any easier to do though.

So today I lost the fight with the ice cream. It's gone now, so the temptation is gone. I had a great breakfast, a great lunch, but then I was starving all day. I had a small piece of cake after lunch. I have actually been chewing Extra gum in order to keep myself from munching all afternoon! I know that I am eating enough, so I am not worried about that. I just don't want to overeat. I don't like not being satisfied. I wonder if that internal switch that says "STOP! You're full!" will come back once I become used to the hormones. Or maybe it will just be a constant struggle to lose weight with the IUD. Either way, it's much better than me being sick all the time and feeling like I'm losing it like when I am on the pill. So I will continue to log my food (I stopped since last Thursday...oops!) for the rest of the week and see if things get better. Knowledge is half the battle, and if I KNOW that I am extra hungry due to hormones, I can try and do things to distract myself.

I also tried to go for a walk today. This ended up being impossible as one of my running shoes has disappeared. It's gone. No clue where to find it. I keep them on the treadmill since that's the only time I use them is for a workout. And I could only find one. They were there on Saturday. I was really really frustrated as I do not own another pair of shoes suitable for walking or running. So the hunt continues...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Rough weekend

It all started Friday night...

I had been cleaning all day. Lost track of time and went way too long without eating. Realized I was starving (so was Elise, she was waaay crabby!). The hubby was calling, on his way home from work. I was in no frame of mind to cook. Period. So we ordered pizza. First of all, waiting that long to eat is a bad idea because it takes too long for my body to register there is food in it, so I tend to overeat. Second, having pizza to fill that very empty tummy is bad news! I of course overate. Plus, with all the sodium in pizza I showed a huge gain overnight. Now I KNOW it was just the sodium, but it didn't make me feel any better about myself.

So Saturday was the birthday party for my girls. I made sure the hubby bought a veggie tray and fruit tray along with other snacks so there would be something healthy to eat. Ummm, yeah. Didn't even touch the veggies! I had some fruit, but the chex mix was awesome :( So I ate that. I also had two pieces of cake...that's what happens when there are two cakes to choose from. You just have a piece of each! I was so sick to my stomach Saturday night. You would think I had learned my lesson. But oh no...of course not. I had leftover cake on Sunday along with a couple scoops of ice cream. My eating has seriously taken a nose dive. So far today I am doing well, the only thing off track that I have had is a handful of candy corn. But I will write it down and be accountable for it.

I also haven't been working out. Now at least there is a semi-sort of good excuse for thise one. Friday was my rest day, so I cleaned all day. The last week or so, my right knee has been bothering me. A lot. And I am not wanting to risk injuring it. So I took Saturday and Sunday off. I asked my doc about it on Monday since I was already there for something else. He thinks it's me starting with too much too fast at a a weight my body just isn't used to. Ok, I can understand that. But I am only about 10-15 pounds heavier now than the last time I starting working out and I am not sure what to think about that. He told me that I need to start with just walking. Bleh. Walking can get boring for me. Unless it's outside. So I didn't do anything Monday or Tuesday. So far I haven't done anything today yet either. I am a little depressed that I can't run...I know it doesn't mean I should do nothing. But it is hard for me to be motivated right now. The scale showed a 4 pound gain since Friday. Now I don't know how much of it is water weight and how much is real weight, but it sucks. I don't want to be this way anymore! And I am really just struggling right now.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Got it done early today

Well I managed to sneak in my workout during the naps today. I did EA Active and a 2 mile run. I almost didn't get to do the run and then it kept getting interrupted for potty breaks (the 2 year old had to go potty, twice). But I got it done. And I feel great! I ran more today than I have before...I think. Out of the 2 miles I ran 1.2 miles of it. In intervals of course. I still can't do more than half a mile at a time for running. But I am getting better. I was able to run a little faster today.

Eating has been great so far. I plan on having my stuffed pepper leftovers f0r dinner tonight while the hubby has the leftover pork sandwhiches. Both sound really yummy right now. I am always really hungry after a workout, but I never know what to eat! I know I need proteins and sugars, but I am not sure what the best thing is. I usually end up eating several small things before I feel even remotely satisfied. Like today I had 2 hard boiled eggs, a cup of fruit, and string cheese. This a great snack for me. But after a run it just doesn't cut it. What do others eat after a great workout??

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

A good day

Today I did well.

I ate healthily all day long, whith one bite of cake top from my mom's house as I walked out the door. I didn't take any the whole time I was there, so I had one tiny bite while I was leaving. My mom decorates cakes so there is always cake tops that she just throws away...and they are my favorite part! So it was awesome that I was able to walk past them and not have a bowl full! I am sure it sounds odd, but it is what it is. Anyway, I tried a new recipe for dinner tonight. The total calorie count was 620 for these stuffed peppers, but they would have been less if I had ground turkey instead of ground beef and if I had used 6 peppers instead of 4. But they were really yummy! I took a picture and was going to post it, but it didn't turn out as well I had wanted. It definitely doesn't do it justice. I am just starting to photo document some of my foods, which is kind of fun. I kept forgetting to do it until after I ate half of it. I also seem to not get a good angle and the food looks really gross in the pictures. I took the time to hard boil eggs today so that I would have another option for a snack. Today I had 2 with a cup of fruit. It was a perfect amount. I ended up staying under my calorie goal today, which seems to be a good goal for me with nursing. I am still losing weight (slowly) and my milk doesn't seem to be affected. I think I have my goal between 2200-2400, so I think I will cut it to 2000-2200 and see how that goes. It's weird to eat so much and yet still be losing! I love it! Except the days where I have a hard time eating enough...and it does happen.
I did manage to get an EA Active workout in. I missed yesterday so I did yesterdays workout today. So I believe that puts me at Day 5 today. It was tough, not gonna lie. I had to do squat jumps and lunge thighs were burning! It's a great feeling :) Nothing beats a great workout! Oh, I just realized I didn't stretch...I should probably go do that right now! (I just finished my workout). Hope everyone had a great Wednesday!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

A learning process

I did not respect my body today.

Am I disappointed? Yes. Will it affect me negatively going forward? No.

I did not respect my body today by putting food in it that wasn't needed to fuel my body. No, I ate food that tasted good but that my body doesn't need. It doesn't deserve to be treated like this anymore. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to fuel my body with nutritous, whole foods. I deserve to have a fit body. My deserves to be worked out in order to keep it in working shape. I ended up skipping my workout so I could watch the Biggest Loser. Afterwards I did realize that this might have been a good decision as my knees are bother me a bit, so the day of rest might not have been awful.

This morning I ate breakfast on my way to my MOPS meeting. I brought fresh fruit since it was my tables turn to bring food. I figured if I ate breakfast I would be less tempted to eat all the other goodies there. While at the store I found these little yummy two bite caramel toffee scones. Mmmm. I should have left them there! I ended up eating a huge plateful of food anyway. And then when the container of scones was almost completely full I had to bring it home with me. I am pretty sure I ate 3/4 of that container. Maybe a little less, but not by much. I also ate a huge salad at my mom's house. I also ate dinner because I knew skipping a meal is just as disrespectful to my body as cramming it full of crap.

I refuse to say today was failure. Why? Because with every mistake made, knowledge is gained. I am learning what it is to respect my body. I am working on chaging my thinking about what I "deserve". I deserve health. This is a hard way to think when you are taught to think that sweets and desserts are "treats" or rewards for when you are good. Why should I reward myself with something that will eventually harm me?? How did we all come to think that we deserve to treat ourselves like crap? I am tired of feeling sluggish and tired. I love the energy I feel after a great workout and eating well. So no, today was not a failure. It was a learning opportunity and I will continue on tomorrow as I usually would. I will have my reallly yummy nutritious breakfast and I will workout, and I will run. I will feel great! I will because that is what I deserve :)

Monday, October 11, 2010

Quick post tonight...

This will probably be quick post tonight since I am exhausted and the little man is not settling down, may have to go nurse him some more.

Today I managed to get Day 4 of the EA Active 30 Day Challenge done. It was focused on upper body, and I definitey felt it! Then I did manage to get a 3 mile run/walk done! I thought about quitting at 2 miles but I really wanted to get to the 3 miles. I started out by running .5 then walked .25 then run .25. It worked for a bit, but then I ended up walking .5 because I was just too tired to run much more! I think it will be easier to do the long runs on days I do not do the EA Active. Tomorrow is EA Active Day 5 and a rest day for running.

Eating went really well today. Breakfast was my usual, which I have been LOVING! It's so simple, and yet so good! Oatmeal with peanut butter and bananas. I was very impressed with myself at lunch today. The hubby made a pizza and I made myself a wrap. He asked if I was going to eat pizza. I said yes, but I only wanted to eat one or two slices and if I didn't eat something healthier first I would eat at least half the pizza! So I ate my wrap, and I ate 2 pieces of pizza and I did NOT go back for more! The time it really tempted was after my workout. I had a banana and some string cheese but was still starving. And there were two more pieces of that pizza left. It would have been so easy. It wouldn't take any preparation. But I resisted and had strawberries and yogurt. Much better! My biggest thing right now is remembering to fuel my body with what it needs, not with what I think I might want.

My mom sent me home with some fresh grown peppers, so I am going to have fun working those into some recipes. I am becoming quite skilled at getting my girls to eat them without them knowing it by hiding them in the meat of food. I know they lose some of their nutritional value by being cooked, but at least they are getting some more veggies!

So all in all it was a pretty good day, and now I am beat. I guess this was little longer than I thought, but now I am headed to bed. The little man has settled down, so I am off the hook and go to sleep myself. Good night!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

My rest day

So like I said yesterday, today is my rest day. Which ended up being a good thing because I really don't have any idea where I would have fit it in!

We had such big plans for my daughters' birthday today. However, most of it didn't turn out quite how we wanted. Naps were needed sooner, lines were longer than we thought, and we just plain ran out of time. Regardless, the day was still a success for the girls. They both had a blast! My eating was less than great because of it all, but I made better choices than I usually would have. We ended up at Dairy Queen for lunch when we found out the wait at the restaurant was and hour and a half! I ordered a bbq sandwhich and when they asked if I wanted the combo I hesitated, but said no. The hubby got me a glass of water (I love that he is totally getting this!). I did eat some of his fries and about half of his cheese curds, but it was better than eating a whole order myself. We did get dessert, of course. But when he asked if I wanted a medium blizzard I said no, just a small. I was so glad he asked me! Earlier today he offered me a strawberry and a mudball, and I declined on both because I just wasn't hungry. I feel like I am listening to my body more than I did just a week ago. Tonight after dinner (which was bbq...go figure!) I realized that I was still feeling hungry. Usually I give myself about 20-30 minutes for food to settle before I would eat anything more. I felt hungry, but when I drank some water it totally did the trick. So I must be slightly dehydrated for the sodium in my food. Dinner consisted of pork sandwhiches with bbq sauce and potato chips. Definitely not something I would normally have, but it was yummy.

Tomorrow is Day 4 of the 30 Day Challenge. I am scheduled to do a 4 mile run/walk, but I think I will try for 3 since I didn't quite manage it yesterday. The hubby has the day off tomorrow, so I know I will have the chance to get the whole workout in without feeling rushed too much.

Oh, and yesterday was my weigh in day. I weighed in at 197.6, which I expected after the sodium the day before. This morning I weighed in at 195.4 which I am much happier with! I will still take the 197 as my official weight and we will see what is like after a full week of being dedicated :) I am so enjoying how much extra energy I have now that I am working out again!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Day 2 done :)

Well I managed to get it done. It took a while, and I thought it might not happen. But I did it.

I completed Day 2 of the EA Active 30 Day Challenge. On moderate intensity. I then attempted my 3 miles. I made it 2.15 miles. I walked half and ran half. Okay, I jogged half. I just didn't think I could do 3 miles. No, that's not true. I KNOW I could have gone 3 miles. But I knew I was in a time crunch and had to shower before I could feed the little man again. So I stopped. I don't regret this decision at all. I did what I knew I was capable of doing. I haven't really worked out in over 10 months. I have to cut my body some slack or I will burn out buy next week! So I did Day 2 and did 2 miles. And I feel AWESOME! My eating has been fairly good today. If anything, I haven't eaten enough. So I should probably have some post workout protein here! Tomorrow is my rest day for both EA Active and running. Plus it's both of my daughter's birthdays tomorrow. My oldest turns 7 and my youngest turns 2! So we have a pretty busy day booked for tomorrow. If it's nice we are going to test out the new double jogging stroller I bought today! Of course I won't actually be jogging since it's my day off, but we'll see how it works with both the 2 year old and the 7 week old in it :) I hope everyone is having a spectacular Saturday!

To workout or to not workout?

That is the question! At least it is for me this morning. The little man woke up at 6:15 which means that right now I am wide awake after getting 7 hours of sleep! Yay! I feel awesome this morning and I was able to resist going back to bed. So far. But here's the deal...I know that I work out better later during the day. I learned this about myself before I got pregnant. I learned that I had much more stamina if I worked out any time after lunch. I know this is because I have fueled my body all day long and therefore I am not working out on just having eaten after a night of sleep. Something about working out in the morning causes me to burn out much quicker. However, there is no guarantee that I will be able to do it later. I can absolutely plan for it to happen, but plans change. Especially with a 7 week old baby and a 2 year old in the house! I know that the hubby has to do dock out this morning and this evening he has to make phone calls. So that leaves the afternoon, which should work out for me. I just hate to put it off because I KNOW I have the opportunity now (well sort of...little man is still making all sorts of noises in his crib). I just know that I will not be able to workout with the intensity I would like to. Plus I am doing EA Active as well as a run...I need to have energy to be able to finish both!

Ok, that being said, I think I will wait. My parents are delivering a couch (YAY!) to my house at 9 am. I can see if my mom will stay and watch the kids then. Otherwise I WILL do it during Elise's nap. The hubby should be home by then and I will have the time to do it. I am looking forward to it! I am not feeling sore at all this morning, so that is good. I am feeling awesome! Since I am now going to workout later, I can either go back to bed for a little while, or I can get some stuff done around the house....hmmm. I think bed sounds nice :) But I am working on a little blanket that is sooo close to being done....

Friday, October 8, 2010

I learned something about myself today...

I don't like challenges. For whatever reason I hit a roadblock when I am in a challenge. Maybe it's the word itself. "Challenge". Like it's something that I really can't complete. I know this is untrue because I have accomplished so many things! A challenge is there to improve yourself from where you are now, to continually better yourself. It is meant to challenge where you are physically or mentally to get you into a better place. I typically am in school, I took the quarter off due to the baby. I mentally challenge myself constantly, and I enjoy it. Yet when it comes to weight loss, diet, or exercise I hit a wall when I am challenged....I am still trying to figure out a solution to this one. Last time around it worked for me to take it day by day, but it also was very easy to get off track. So for right now, it is one day at a time....

Today was an EA Active day. I restarted the 30 Day Challenge (there's that word again!). I had only done 2 days of it before on easy intensity. So this evening I revved it up to moderate intensity, and I know I will be feeling it in the morning! However I feel absolutely amazing right now. I always feel great after a good workout. I feel like I can conquer anything. Eating was a little less than stellar today, but it wasn't horrible. I wrote down everything I ate, but didn't get the calorie counts for everything so I'm not even sure where I am at with that. And tomorrow is my weigh day...go figure. But all is well, I know that I have been trending downward so even if there is an uptick tomorrow, I know it would be from all the sodium I ingested today. I have been downing the water like crazy too. And tomorrow is a new day! I can say that now because today is almost over :) My husband offered me a mudball (one of my mom's really yummy oreo truffles) after my workout. Normally these are hard for me to resist. I could eat the whole box in one day. I was able to turn him down. He teased me because I just worked out. In all honesty, I just wasn't hungry! I told him I had eaten what I needed for the day and didn't want/need anything else. I was really surprised at how true the statement was. I didn't want it. It didn't even sound good. I was very proud of myself to listening to my body instead of mindlessly eating something I know to be quite scrumptious but totally not good for me!

Tomorrow is Day 2 of the EA Active 30 Day Challenge. I am also scheduled to do a 3 mile run/walk. I look forward to a really good workout tomorrow!

Thursday, October 7, 2010


I know I have posted something just about every 4 hours or so, but I had to say I finally got my run in!!! It took some doing since my mom is sick and couldn't come help with the kids. I thought I wasn't going to be able to get it in since Sean was being fussy, but I laid him in the crib and let him cry for a few minutes and before long he was sound asleep! So I was able to get my run in after all. I only went 2 miles, but then it's been like 10 months since I ran last. I tried using Week 4 for the C25k, but found it quite difficult (I was going to do week 3 but I couldn't find it on my iPod). So I just alternated my running and walking as I felt necessary. I feel good. I am looking forward to getting back up to funning several miles at once, but I know it will take some time to get my stamina back. I would share my run with you, but I can't figure out how to do it anymore! The site has changed some since I was last on it :)

Now tomorrow will be an EA Active day.

Can't get up in the morning...

I need a new plan. I need to make time for my workouts during the day, but I don't know where they should be. I usually feed Sean between 5 and 5:30 in the morning. I contemplated just staying up and working out then. However, last night he decided to get up at 2 am as well. My bed just called my name! I am planning on running during Elise's nap, if Sean also takes a nap. Otherwise I may call my mom to come over to watch him so I can get it in. I NEED a plan of action, something that I can stick to everyday. I don't know how to get there. Mornings are just sooo hard! I always seem to talk myself out of it. My goal is today is to restart the C25k. Not sure where to start though. I am sure that week 1 will be too easy. And possibly even week 2. So I may try week 3 just to see where I am at and go from there.

Yesterday I wrote down everything I ate. I wrote down the calories of all the stuff I knew the calories of. The only thing I didn't know was the fruit I had. I didn't eat well all day, but I tracked it. I owned it. The scale showed down 1 lb since yesterday, which is always encouraging. So far today my eating has been stellar. I am planning a low calorie meal for dinner, I already know what I will eat for's in between there that's the hardest! I need to get more fresh fruits and veggies today so I have healthier food to munch on. I also need the option of something sweet. Yesterday when my sweet tooth kicked in I had 2 toaster struedels...Not the healthiest choice! I need to find something that will satisfy my sweet tooth without making me feel crappy for eating it!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

I finally found it!!!

After searching and searching boxes that have yet to be unpacked and coming up empty handed, I finally found my iPod charger! In a most unusual place, I might add! It was in a basket on top of my fridge. Go figure. Never thought to look there! I was actually looking for batteries at the time. I lifted the basket and I knew there was no batteries in it, but I looked anyway. Lo and behold, there my charger sat. I was sooo excited! I even said "Huzzah" (my sister is trying to incorporate that word back into everyday language) because I couldn't believe I finally found one! What is sad is that we actually have 3 of them and they were all missing. So my iPod is now charging up. I also took the advice of a fellow BTLer Lynette S. and tried using a magnet from my hubbies old work pin he had to wear in order to get the treadmill working. It worked!!! I seriously am ecstatic that I will be able to run tomorrow!!! I would do it tonight, but the baby still cluster feeds at night, making it virtually impossible to do anything other than nurse him. So tomorrow morning I am gonna go for a run! It's been sooo long! I know I will have to ease myself into it again, but I so look forward to it.

Failure is not an option!

So things have not been going as I wanted. No, that's not true. I have not made the effort to make them go the way I wanted! Between being tired and the extra stress in my life, I have not been eating healthy at all. Thankfully I have only maintained my weight and I haven't gained anything! This morning I weighed in at 199.0 which I am horrified to be at this weight still, but will not stay here for long! My sister has lost a bunch of weight and hit the 180s recently. I have much farther to go than she does since I am shorter than she is, but it is nice to be losing weight with someone! (Especially since the hubby doesn't seem to be interested in it right now!) So here is why I am struggling...I am not writing my food down. I kept saying I didn't need to track food, just eat healthier. Well, that's just dumb. I lost a lot of weight before (3o pounds) because I wrote down what I ate! So I started writing down my food yesterday. And yesterday I ate a lot of crap. So today I am choosing healthier options. I just went grocery shopping, so we have lots of stuff in the house. Now, not all of it is healthy, so I have to be careful. Tracking my food just keeps me mindful of what I am putting into my body. So, we'll see how it pans out this week.

On the exercise front, well, I was able to work out 2 times with my EA active that my hubby got me for Christmas last year! I am having a difficult time finding time to do it! I just need to get my butt out of bed in the morning! But when I wake up at 5 to feed the baby, all I want to do is go back to bed until 7. I just need to stay up at that point and workout. Another issue I am having...I cannot find my ipod charger anywhere. So I have no music and no way to track my runs if I run outside. I could run on the treadmill except the magnetic key for our treadmill has mysteriously disappeared. So it doesn't work. And the only place I can find to replace it will cost us 50 bucks! Geez! So I am feeling less than excited about running outside with no music. I have to stop letting that keep me from working out at all. I can still do other stuff like the 30 day shred, EA active, Wii fit, Core Rythms, No More Trouble Zones (which I haven't even tried yet!). So I need to just get off my butt during Elise's nap. Yesterday I took a nap instead.

I have been watching the Biggest Loser which is a huge motivation for me. It makes me realize that I can really do it. If they can do it, I can definitely do it. I just need to make the time. I can't just squeeze it in, I have to make it a priority. I know that things will get easier as Sean gets older and he doesn't nurse ever 2 hours, but until then I must find time for me to get myself healthy. I am tired of blogging about what I will do. I want to blog about what I have accomplished. That's part of the reason I haven't been blogging these days. But no more! I will accomplish my goals! I will make a lifestyle change! And I WILL get HEALTHY!