tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27186280619816340122024-03-05T06:12:19.250-08:00Running Knitwit MomEmilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.comBlogger42125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-10602660162103800052010-11-10T10:10:00.000-08:002010-11-10T10:29:47.036-08:00You must give...In order to receive. You would think that since I have heard that most of my life, I would already have learned it by now. In fact, I used to know it so well that all I ever did was give...which actually turned against me, but that's a whole other story!<br /><br />Being a SAHM I don't get out much. When I worked I worked with friends. Up until last quarter I had classes that I went to, which kept me in touch with people. Now I have nothing. My close friends are gone because, well we just drifted apart. Our lives are so different. I have 3 kids now, and most of my "friends" have none. I don't have anyone to talk to. I started going to MOPS, but that is only twice a month, and it's just hard for me to feel like I am connecting with anyone. It's a blast while I am there, but in the meantime I sit alone.<br /><br />Even in the blogging world, I feel a little alone. I love reading other people's blogs. I love reading about the successes, failures, motivations, and lack thereof. However, I hardly ever comment. I am always afraid I will say something wrong, come off as "stalkerish" or something weird like that. I will start to comment, but then decided what I have to say just isn't worth saying. Hmmm. And then I wonder why no one comments on mine...Maybe others have the same issue, maybe I am just not writing anything interesting, maybe I just shouldn't worry about it! I am writing this for me, so I can keep track and stay motivated. I want to be able to motivate others, but that takes an extra step, right? You have to give before you can receive. So here's my little bit of giving. I want to share a handful of my go-to blogs, the one's that really inspire me to keep going.<br /><br /><a href="http://skinnyemmie.com/2010/11/whats-the-alternative/">Skinnyemmie</a> - this particular blog post is the reason why I am not wallowing in self pity today!<br /><br /><a href="http://80sticksofbutter.blogspot.com/">80 Sticks of Butter</a> - she always motivates me to work a little harder, and she usually can make me laugh!<br /><br /><a href="http://greenlitebites.com/">Green Lite Bites</a> - my first go-to for new recipes to try. I have loved almost everything I have ever tried from here...and so have my family!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.fitmomintraining.com/">Stephanie</a> - she has totally inspired me to continue going even with such a small child at home<br /><br /><a href="http://www.emilysinnerskinny.blogspot.com/">Emily</a> - her site will be moving soon, and I will continue to follow...her posts are so inspiring!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.kendrathroughthelookingglass.com/">Kendra</a> - oh my gosh this girl cracks me up! I look forward to her posts because they are definitely never dull!<br /><br />That is just a few to get me started. I am going to try and link at least one other person to my blog and explain just how they inspired me that day. Since I do read blogs daily, it will be my way of paying it forward so others can be motivated as well! Thank you to all who continue to inspire me on my journey, even if I haven't told you yet! I will make it a point to comment on those blogs that keep me going so you know how much you are helping me and my journey.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-60921527854936239972010-11-09T18:49:00.001-08:002010-11-09T19:12:09.529-08:00Biggest Loser 10I am having another off day today, and I know it's because I am still sick. Plus it's a MOPS Tuesday which means I am privy to way to much yummy food and not nearly strong enough to just walk away from it yet. I did not eat as much there as I usually do, but I did indulge. Then at lunch I was just wanting sugar. I had some. Then I remembered there was a hot pocket type thing in the freezer, so heated that up. I realized it was almost 600 calories. I still decided to eat it...until I took two or three bites of it. It was disgusting. I was only eating it because, well I don't even really know why. I was exhausted. So I threw it in the trash after having only eaten a few bites. I usually eat things out of obligation. I hate wasting food. But I knew I didn't need it. I knew it was gross, not only in taste, but for my body. So in the trash it went and I took a short nap instead of eating more crap.<br /><br />Note: Spoiler Alert...if you haven't seen tonights episode and don't want to know how it ends, don't read on!<br /><br />Now on to the Biggest Loser. I don't know how many people watch the show. I have been watching the show for the last 3 seasons and I have to say that normally I really enjoy it. This season is really making me mad. It has gone from last season all about helping each other lose weight (which is the point of the show, right?) to this season and it's all about the game play. I am having a difficult time enjoying the show this season. I find myself yelling at the people on tv! I get so frustrated. This show used to encourage me and motivate me. Now all it does is make me mad. Is anyone finding that true this season??? I think that they need to screen the contestants better next season. They need to have people on there that actually want the help to lose weight, not to play the game the way they have. Lisa doesn't even want to be there anymore, and yet she is still there because she's not a threat. And Elizabeth? All she does is depend on everyone else to keep her there. They should have gone home. Although I must say that Bob was totally right on when he said that Aaron and Jesse had totally won it because they got it. Jesse was awesome in saying it is not the finale he looks forward to, it's the day after when he eats a healthy breakfast and goes for a jog. I need to remember that even though I am not in a "contest" it's about the every day of "getting it". I want to be the one that gets it. I want to make it stick.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-89650621965724498042010-11-08T18:16:00.000-08:002010-11-08T18:37:03.674-08:00Feeling goodFunny how some days you just feel really good. About almost everything.<br /><br /><br /><br />Although this is only partly true about today as I am currently beginning to feel crappy, but that is just the cold talking. Other than fighting off this silly sore throat and stuffy nose, I feel great today! It's absolutely amazing how our bodies are created to work...you fuel it with healthy, nutritious food and it rewards you with feeling great and more energy.<br /><br /><br /><br />Yesterday is just a bad memory. I did not let it affect my attitude today. Even when I saw another gain on the scale this morning. I could have not weighed myself, but I have learned in the past that weighing myself after a binge day and seeing a gain is actually good for me. It shows me that I really did nothing good for myself by gorging on sugar. I had a scrumptious breakfast to start my morning off and I have stayed on track all day long. I even got a 2 mile run in today. Each run is getting a little easier, a little faster, and a lot more enjoyable.<br /><br />When I began running again after Sean was born, it was difficult. I still enjoyed the feeling afterwards, the endorphin rush of completing a great workout. However, I would be stiff and sore, it would be difficult to climb the stairs. Just after 2 miles, and that wasn't even running the whole time, not even half the time! Now I am running the majority of the 2 miles (I am working my way up to running the whole thing) and I am not sore after anymore. Instead I feel incredibly energized. Today I even wondered if I should have tried for 3 miles because 2 was almost too easy. Although if you had asked me while I was on the treadmill if I thought I could do it I would have laughed in your face and said Absolutely NOT!<br /><br />I am feeling my body getting back to where it was last summer. Where it was fueled with good, real food and it was being worked out with strength training and running, training for a 5k and then a 10k. I knew I was still 30 or 40 pounds away from my goal weight back then, but I was learning how amazing my body was and learning to love my body as it was. Now I am 40 pounds heavier than last summer, and I am relearning this all over again. I really dislike what my body looks like, most of the time. But if I can get past what it looks like on the outside and focus on what it does for me every single day, despite what I have done to it, I am in awe. I need to remember this feeling. I need to remember that my body thanks me when I fuel it the right way. My body thanks me when I try to get it into better shape. Our bodies want to be healthy, they were created to be healthy. They were created to function properly. It is my responsibility to give it what it needs. It's the only body I will ever have, and I need to treat it better. I deserve to feel good. Even if I am not happy, yet, with the shape of my body, it is getting closer every day to it's ideal shape.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-16098549485096921162010-11-07T18:20:00.000-08:002010-11-07T18:26:00.584-08:00Emotional eatingToday was not a good day for me. Not only did I wake up with my daughter's cold, but everyone in our family is sick with the same cold. The girls have it the worst. Sean was up because of it last night. And I was quite miserable due to it most of the day. Add to that the stress of dealing with a hubby that would rather watch football than help with a sick 2 year old, and I was pretty stressed today. It's just so easy to lose your temper when you don't feel well, especially when the child is extremely fussy because they don't feel well. Ugh! Just a crappy day...and my eating showed this. I wanted comfort food this morning, so I started my day with cereal instead of oatmeal. Not that bad, right? Wrong...cereal is a trigger food for me. I had two rather full bowls of frosted flakes which led to cookies, which led to candy, and so on. The only good part of my day was dinner. I ate a great dinner. I made <a href="http://greenlitebites.com/2010/11/01/simple-tuna-burgers/">Simple Tuna Burgers</a> and they turned out really yummy. I added cayenne pepper to it because I looove spicy food. They are definitely something I will be making again.<br /><br />I did not get a run in today because of not feeling well. I am hoping that tomorrow will be better, and not worse! I am keeping my fingers crossed that I don't end up really sick tomorrow...that would really bite! So I am heading to bed extra early tonight! Well, Sean is calling for me...apparently he wasn't quite finished nursing when I put him to bed :)Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-21915672227098142072010-11-06T17:46:00.000-07:002010-11-06T18:01:03.352-07:00Down another poundToday has been a good day all around...I got to take a nice 2 hour nap this morning, worked out for 30 minutes, then ran almost a whole mile! It was my best run yet! I ran all but .1 of it. And that was right after working my legs out. On top of all of this, the hubby declared today that he NEEDS to lose weight. He also worked out, including raking the leaves in the backyard, and he made dinner. He is suddenly interested in healthier foods...not as much as I am, but it's a start! That made my whole day. He is about 285 pounds. Now he's not a small guy, fairly tall at 6'3", but he is definitely in need of dropping at least 50 pounds. He doesn't think he will ever get under 200, which is fine, as long as he is healthy!<br /><br />Yesterday I decided that I need to do something with the sweet potatoes before they rotted on my counter. So I chopped them up with some carrots, peppers, and zucchini drizzled it with olive oil and added oregano and course sea salt. Threw it all in the oven and roasted them. They turned out AMAZING! I am not usually one for a plate full of veggies, but you best believe that dinner last night as well as lunch and dinner today included half of my plate full of those veggies! The best part is they are so filling! I don't feel like I need to eat my weight in meat to keep myself satisfied. I am not a fan of white potatoes, but they were on sale so we have a bag of them. So the hubby found a recipe for onion, apple, potato hash. I had a small helping of that with dinner tonight. The apples made it seem like I was eating sweet potatoes! Oh, and I decided that since I was going to have to use up the rest of that chocolate chip cookie dough, I needed to make cookies that I won't feel guilty about eating. So I tried Roni's <a href="http://greenlitebites.com/2010/11/03/molasses-cookie-balls/">Molasses Cookies</a> and they are sooo incredibly good! I was nervous that I wouldn't like them because they wouldn't be sweet. They are the perfect amount of sweetness. Even the hubby like them, although he commented that they definitely weren't sweet. I thought they were perfect! I will definitely be making those again! Elise had a blast "helping" make the cookies.<br /><br />So I am completely satisfied with my day today, even though I didn't lose the 2 pounds I had hoped for. One pound is still awesome since I am now 1 pound closer to my goal. I know that I had a few rough days this past week with the candy, so I know that this coming week will be better. The hubby and I will be working out a menu tomorrow, I will get the necessary groceries on Monday. I am currently trying to use up the tons of food we have in our pantry, so I am trying to create our menu around that. So far it has worked out really well for us. I know that Shannon actually <a href="http://www.blogtolose.com/profiles/blogs/cutting-food-expenseslevel-2">blogged about that </a>either yesterday or today. It can be tough to eat healthy on such a tight budget, but we are managing! Tomorrow I am also planning on at least a 2 mile run, hopefully outside! We'll see how that goes....Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-40455738387589404972010-11-05T18:06:00.000-07:002010-11-05T18:23:11.226-07:00A 5k for Thanksgiving?I have been in search of a Turkey Trot to do this year. It would be a first for me. Of course I cannot find one that is close. There are some in the cities, but I really don't like the cities. I am a small town girl. Or at least smallish towns. It's at least a 40 minute drive to the cities, and then there's the traffic. Eww. I hate traffic. I also don't really like large crowds. I know that races are usually large amounts of people, but the cities have HUGE crowds. There is one more local, but it's not ON Thanksgiving. It's on the 13th. Or the 18th. I found both dates for the same place.<br /><br />So here's my idea. And it might be more than I can handle, but here it is anyway. I want to start my own. Does that sound crazy? Because it does to me! Obviously I won't be able to do it this year, although I still will do something this year. The hubby even agreed to do it with me! I would love to plan and organize a Turkey Trot race in my area for next year. I would love to have the proceeds of said race go to families that cannot afford a meal for Thanksgiving...or something along those lines. I would want the proceeds to go a worthy charity. I am not sure how to go about said project. Do I need to contact the city in order to get a spot to hold the race? Does anyone have any experience doing such things? I welcome any and all advice regarding starting a race! I think that there is not enough emphasis on a healthy lifestyle these days, especially during the holidays. I am excited to reach out to others and get them excited about running. Or even just walking! Am I crazy here? Or is this something that is totally doable???Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-67059398420019796482010-11-04T18:24:00.000-07:002010-11-04T19:50:45.879-07:00Sugar is not my friendI know this. And by know, I mean I KNOW this!<br /><br />I have studied nutrition now for 3 years. Of course I do not know everything. I am constantly learning more. I love to learn! I love that I can continually better myself. Knowledge is an amazing thing! However, sometimes there is a disconnect between head knowledge and applying it to every day life. I know how to eat healthy and live healthy. Sometimes it's just harder than others!<br /><br />I missed my blog post yesterday because our internet/cable was out. It was down everywhere around here. So it seems a little unfair that I will miss my goal due to unavoidable things, but that's life. Life is not fair of course. It is what it is and I will move on! Yesterday was a great day for me. I did a 20 minute weight circuit and I ran a mile. Well, I ran most of the mile :) My eating was much better yesterday, until right around dinner time. I think that I just need to eat more after I work out because by the time I was cooking dinner I was starving. Again. I hate that feeling! Because then I have an uncontrollable urge to eat. I say urge and not need because I could have stopped at the 4 baby carrots, or the two cookies, but no, I had to eat 6 cookies plus the carrots. Then I ate dinner on top of it! It's definitely not me eating out of boredom, but I tend to OVEReat when it gets like this. So I need to make sure I do not let it get that bad. I need to have healthier snacks on hand. And I need to get rid of the sugar in the house! The cookies are gone now...sort of. We have all the cookie dough still. So I think that it will be safe to make them after awhile. I need to "detox" my body. I need to get the sugar out! Once it is out, it is MUCH easier for me to avoid. The candy must go as well. I can stay away from the kids' buckets because I would feel much too guilty, but the big bowl of leftover candy from Halloween? Yeah, it's gotta go. It taunts me from it's place above the cupboards. I can see it all day long from where I sit to feed Sean, where I sit with my laptop. It's high enough up that I need a chair to reach it. I only gave in once (on Monday). Honestly it's easier to avoid because I know all the good stuff in there is gone. All that's left is stuff I don't necessarily crave. Ever. The inlaws house is another story. They have all the chocolatey good stuff. We were there today because they are leaving tomorrow. So that temptation will be gone. But not after I had my fill of Snickers, Kit Kats, and Dove dark chocolates. Ahhh well.<br /><br />One of the things I have been "struggling" with lately is the quality of food versus the quantity of calories. I do know that it is possible to eat whatever foods I want, as long as I am within a certain calorie limit, and I can lose weight. Problem with this scenario is typically eating those foods in such limited amounts may lead to a binge fest later on. When you are used to eating large portions of your favorites, sometimes it's just too hard to simply scale it back. Anyway, I digress. The way I know is best is to eat healthier foods. Eating fresh fruits, veggies, whole grains, lean meats...these are the foods I need to be consuming. And I mostly do. I typically eat a fairly well rounded, balanced diet. Right now, however, I seem to be justifying this sugar kick with, I know I need the calories because I am still nursing AND I am working out. Hmmm. This doesn't really seem smart. I know that Sean will still be getting the calories he needs. But I am supplying the best milk I can by eating things that are not as nutritious? I am not sure how it all works, but I assume that the food I eat must affect the milk he gets. And just because something is low in calories doesn't make it good for you. So here I sit, desiring to eat healthier and really struggling with all the temptation in the house at the moment. I just don't know what to do! My mom tells me to throw it all away. I might have to do that. I also don't want to take the candy away from the kids, but I don't really want them eating it all either! At this point, they are allowed one piece a day, which doesn't ruin them and doesn't deprive them either. That's a whole other blog post! I would rather give the big bowl of candy away so the hubby doesn't eat it all either (he also doesn't need it!).<br /><br /><strong><em>What do you do with the Halloween candy that just sits in your house??? Throw it, keep it, give it away? </em></strong><br /><br /> Oh, and my challenge stats as of yesterday (Day 12):<br /><br />CE 17/55<br />RT 3/15<br />CT 6/20<br />PG1 11/33<br />PG2 7/22<br />PG3 11/33<br />WL 2.4/8Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-52991355328478473492010-11-02T18:24:00.000-07:002010-11-02T18:32:28.969-07:00Great run todayHad a much better day today! I ended up not doing what I had expected, but it was a great day nonetheless. I didn't get to work much in the kitchen, but I got a great 2 mile run in! I ran more today than I have since the baby was born! And I probably could have kept going. I only quit because I figured I needed to shower so I could nurse Sean. However, he ended up sleeping an hour more than I thought he would! I am not disappointed though. I probably did just what I needed to do :)<br /><br />I need to update my challenge numbers...I haven't been tracking my food the past 3 days (due to a hectic weekend. I do know where I am sitting in the challenge, I just need to put it together! I should have that to post on tomorrow. I plan on doing some resisitance training tomorrow as well as a run.<br /><br />I made some AMAZING pork chops tonight with some apples sliced up, a little brown sugar and cinnamon. They were delish! I used some steam fresh veggies and made some stuffing (I only had a small amount of the stuffing). It was something even my oldest ate :) That doesn't happen all the time! Tomorrow night I am planning on making the <a href="http://greenlitebites.com/2010/10/21/deep-dish-crescent-pizza-casserole/">Deep Dish pizza </a>again. I also plan on making some more snack foods. I roasted some pumpkin seeds yesterday. I need to make some more<a href="http://greenlitebites.com/2010/10/10/pumpkin-oatmeal-cups/"> pumpkin oatmeal cups </a>and hopefully some other good healthy snacks for myself. Yay for a good day!Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-53916560706412467572010-11-01T17:15:00.000-07:002010-11-01T17:24:09.980-07:00Feeling like crap todayAnd it's totally my own fault.<br /><br />It has been a crazy weekend with all the Halloween plans. We took the kids to the mall for trick or treating and to get their pictures taken (my sister works at Flash!). Anyway, by the time we left I was wiped out. I knew we still had trick or treating in the neighborhood too. So we ordered pizza. I started with just 2 pieces, but went back for a third. I even said halfway through the third piece that it didn't even taste good. But of course I finished it. It's that whole, finish what's on your plate, don't waste food and therefore money by not finishing your food. So I ate it. I knew I would gain overnight just because of the salt content of pizza. I was doing well with the whole candy thing until the hubby bought 6 or 7 bags of candy for us to hand out. Of course we didn't hand it all out. So there's tons sitting right by the door. I ended up eating several pieces last night. Whatever, no big deal right? The hubby put the candy up somewhere hard for me to reach so I wouldn't be as tempted.<br /><br />I also told him to take the leftover pizza with him for lunch today. He didn't. So when lunch came around and there wasn't anything "easy" to make (read quick...I was hungry!) I had the leftover pizza. Then I proceeded to have 6 cookies! Geez! I then ate a bunch of candy. I felt really sick today. I still feel really gross. So I went somewhere else for the afternoon so I wouldn't be tempted by the candy (of course they had candy sitting out at their house too!). I didn't have time to make dinner, so the hubby stopped at Jimmy John's so I got an un-which. It was AWESOME! I need to remember how much better I feel when I good food. Real food. I know that I feel so gross when I eat the junk food. It just is hard to remember that when I am trying to figure out what to eat. Convenience just ends up winning!<br /><br />But I did stock up on some healthy stuff from the grocery store. I bought lots of pumpkin so I can try out some new recipes. Tonight I will do better. No more food. Just lots and lots of water. Tomorrow is a new day. I have the ability to change the course of my day with every new decision I face. I am choosing not to workout tonight because I feel so awful. I will get a workout in tomorrow (the hubby doesn't work for the next two days). Don't forget to vote!!Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-59185831275555633352010-10-30T19:21:00.000-07:002010-10-30T19:25:41.710-07:00Down 2.4I was very excited to see a 2.4 loss on the scale this morning. I am very happy to report that I kept up my momentum today as well. I did a quick resistance training workout and then I ran a mile. I felt amazing. My arms are a little sore right now though :) My eating was great until dinner. I was so hungry. I know better! But I had my yummy soup, and then ate 4 fish sticks. Which wasn't so bad. But Neika had a fundraiser that I bought cookie dough from. I promised her we would make cookies. I have had 5. Now they aren't very big, but 5 is a lot more than I have had in over a week. And way more than I needed.<br /><br />I am tired tonight, so this is about as much thought as I can put into a blog tonight. Sorry! I should be back to my chipper self tomorrow :)Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-56259845619046915672010-10-29T19:17:00.000-07:002010-10-29T19:26:26.896-07:00Running makes me...Feel like I can do anything! I absolutely love the feeling I get after a run.<br /><br />Now, right now I can't even run a whole mile at a time. I am still doing intervals at this point. Since I rested my knee it has been doing SO much better. It doesn't hurt at all anymore. So I thought I would give it a try today. I popped in a DVD I hadn't seen before and warmed up for a about .25 of a mile. Then I covered the display on the treadmill with a towel and I ran. It's actually the only way I can run on the treadmill. Being able to see the time tick by drives me nuts and makes the time move slower. Having the movie on definitely helped me in being able to run for longer periods of time as I was distracted. I did 2 miles in 31 minutes. I know it's not where I was last year, but you know what??? It's better than I was doing two months ago! And I feel great! I am definitely making progress. I love love love how I feel when I run. A great workout always makes me feel better about myself. Not only do I feel great just because I ran, but I begin to remember all the reasons to love myself as I am right now.<br /><br />Sometimes I get so hung up on who/what I want to be that I forget that I am still going to be the same me. I have a hard time receiving a compliment right now because I honestly don't believe them (when they are talking about my physical appearance). I get caught up on the fact that I am not where I want to be yet. But I need to remember that I am not going to get where I want to be without accepting where I am right now. I am slowly learning to love myself where I am at right now. This is really tough for me. I decided a month or so ago that whenever my husband complimented me that I needed to just say thank you. Instead of my usual eye roll, whatever you say attitude that I had before. It's taking time to adjust, but it makes a big difference for me. I need to believe him that he thinks I am beautiful. I do believe him. I just don't think it about myself yet.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-56874811629231655042010-10-28T19:25:00.000-07:002010-10-28T19:37:17.538-07:00So incredibly tiredI feel like I am dead on my feet right now. I could blame it on the fact that I have 10 week old baby...<br /><br />But he sleeps through the night most of the time. I could blame it on insomnia...<br /><br />Except I am sleeping so soundly lately that I sleep through the alarm clock. I could blame it on just lack of sleep...<br /><br />Except I get a good solid 6 hours most nights. Well, maybe it's just not enough for me. I could try to go to bed earlier, but then there goes any time during the day that I can spend doing what I want to do or spending time with they hubby. Typically I am in bed by 11 and up between 5-7 for a baby feeding. I get up around 7 for good in order to get Neika to the bus stop on time.<br /><br />I have no energy to workout, no time to take a nap. Today I had every intention of working out. It just never happened. I did however, manage to make 3 different new dishes today. I have a TON of dried beans, peas, and lentils in my pantry. Yesterday I soaked and cooked a pound of white beans, today I put them into 2 different recipes. One was really good, <a href="http://www.skinnytaste.com/2008/12/pasta-fagioli-64-pts.html">Pasta Fagioli</a>, and the other one had no flavor at all. I will need to play around with it to get it to be edible. It's a good recipe base, I just need to add something...still trying to figure out how to spin it into something I will really enjoy. The third one I am trying is a white chicken chili. If it ends up good I can post the recipe for it. But it won't be done until tomorrow. Gotta love crock pot recipes!<br /><br />So for being extremely tired today I did manage to accomplish a lot. This was due to the help of my mother in law as she watched the little ones for me during parts of the process. It was also the only thing keeping me awake! If I sat down I felt like I would start to doze. I knew I couldn't fall asleep with a 10 week old and a 2 year old running around the house (the 2 year old was running, not the 10 week old...he just kind of laid there, just wanted to clarify this!) So I feel like I didn't accomplish anything because I didn't actually do what I set out to do. What I need to do is focus on the fact that I have 3 very nutritious meals that I can feed my family ready to go. I have been really working on making food to freeze and I am doing fairly well with this task. I am learning to really love working in the kitchen and trying out new recipes. I think I have tried something new every day this week! It's been a blast! Now if I could just get enough energy to actually workout...Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-5065051644921059062010-10-27T19:59:00.000-07:002010-10-27T20:06:33.709-07:00Quick update tonightI was dreading doing a blog tonight...not because I had a bad day, but because I am so freaking exhausted! But blogging daily is one of my <a href="http://neversaynever27.blogspot.com/2010/10/33-day-challenge.html">challenge</a> goals. Then I realized that not every post needs to be forever long. So I will try to make this short and sweet since once I start typing I tend to get carried away :)<br /><br />Today went well, it was just incredibly long. It started of with snow. Great. I really don't like cold weather. Not sure why I live in Minnesota! Anyway, food was great today. We went to my parents for dinner before church and my mom made spaghetti. Since she is gluten free I ended up choosing her brown rice noodles over the regular white pasta. Great choice! They were awesome! I might try to use that instead of whole wheat pasta (which I only use because I know it's better for me). I have always preferred regular angel hair pasta over anything else, but these were incredible! I had a nice portion and one slice of bread. Bad part was that I added crushed red pepper. I added a little too much of it...ended up with another piece of bread and a glass of 2% milk since that's all they had. I only poured myself about half a glass though. I felt really full after dinner. I think it was due to the extra piece of bread.<br /><br />Had to take a rest day for workout today since I literally had no time. And I am going to head to bed shortly since I keep having to retype words here...I keep messing up because my eyes are crossing trying to see the computer screen! Good night and I hope everyone had a great day today!Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-49349442214375552052010-10-26T19:46:00.000-07:002010-10-26T20:16:17.144-07:00Another successful dayI am proud to say that today was another successful day. Especially since it started out really rocky.<br /><br />Sean was up in the middle of the night, which of course meant that I was up for awhile. So when the hubby's alarm clock went of this morning apparently I never heard it. At least not until the fourth or fifth time it went off! This mean we were about 20 minutes behind schedule on a day that I can't afford to be behind schedule. It's the one day a week that after the bus stop, I actually have plans for me. I get to go to MOPS a (Mother's of Preschoolers) and meet with other mom's. Seeing that I don't have a single friend right now (other than my mom or my sister) being able to make on this particular morning is important to me. It's pretty much the only social opportunity I have right now. Anyway, the mom's always provide breakfast foods. The spread ranges from egg bakes, hashbrown cheesy potatoes, fresh fruit and veggies, homebaked goods, and other things that are not really on my "plan". Usually I eat before I go so I won't eat there...or at least much. This morning sleeping in too late meant that I missed breakfast. I HATE missing breakfast! I went in knowing I would be starving. I also knew that I could make the right choices if I really wanted to. So I had very small portions of the things that might not be that great for me. I took a variety of foods. But even when I was still hungry I did not take anymore.<br /><br />I know that it was a horrible breakfast for me because I was starving by the time I got home for lunch, and even my nutritious leftovers from last nights AMAZING dinner didn't fill me up! So with my new found knowledge of nutrition and how my body reacts to food, I decided not to eat anything extra. I put my energy into making different nutritious snacks in the kitchen. I tried making Roni's <a href="http://greenlitebites.com/2010/10/10/pumpkin-oatmeal-cups/">Pumpkin Oatmeal Cups</a> which turned out really nummy. I will definitely be making them again. The 2 year old ate 2 of them and kept asking for more all day long! I also baked some chick peas for a nice little salty snack.<br /><br />After picking my oldest up from the bus stop, I came home and made a really scrumptious dinner. Chicken (I try out a new chicken recipe almost every time!) which turned out really good, brown rice, peas, and a salad with mandarin oranges. I normally don't blog about my food, but when it's really good, I usually like to share!<br /><br />The weather today has been absolutely horrible, so that nixed doing anything outside with the kiddos. I also didn't know when I would get a workout in since it's Tuesday, which mean's Biggest Loser and Parenthood. This is the only night that I plan to sit and watch tv. But I fed Sean at 7, and as soon as he was done, I changed into workout clothes and hopped on the treadmill. I brought my workout clothes down with me so I didn't have the excuse of not wanting to go upstairs for them. I did a little over 20 minutes because I wanted to be able to join the #fitblog chat tonight. I managed to run for about 3 minutes of it. I didn't want to overdo it since my knee had been hurting. I feel like I did all right!<br /><br />I am very proud of myself for making today be great even though I normally would have decided today would be a throw away day just because I missed breakfast! I really enjoyed my day. So Day 4 is done! And I am loving it!! :)Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-71396853655492689162010-10-25T18:36:00.001-07:002010-10-25T18:40:40.597-07:00And the mystery is SOLVED!!So in all our efforts to locate my shoe (i.e., tearing apart the basement) we never thought to turn the treadmill on. I had orignally left my running shoes on the treadmill. The girls had set up a "tent" using the treadmill as part of it (I told them not to, but they did it anyway). My daughter's friend, who is 6, was walking on the treadmill without it being on, just using her body weight to make the belt move. Somehow my shoe got stuck underneath the belt and went into the front of the treadmill! I turned it on to walk for my warm up tonight and heard a kathunk from under the treadmill and it slowed down. I turned it off and looked underneath...lo and behold there was my shoe! I almost cried I was so excited!<br /><br />So I decided to do the EA Active...thankfully because had I done the Shred I never would have turned the treadmill on! I am feeling pretty awesome tonight! Oh, and I did discover tonight what has been hurting my knee...the kick ups. When they have you do fast kick ups it puts extra strain on my knee. So I will have to do something else instead of those and maybe I will get back to running next week! EEEK!! I am super pumped!!!Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-91267696533325011792010-10-25T17:09:00.000-07:002010-10-25T17:29:39.866-07:00Day 3 and still going strongTypically when I participate in a challenge it is around the 3rd or 4th day that things usually start to go downhill for me. I am determined to change that with this challenge!<br /><br />Several of my goals have been quite easy to keep on track with. And some of them are a little more difficult just because I seem to have a hard time finding time in my day to workout. It was icky and cold out today, so no walk with the little ones. I need to find some sort of activity to do during the morning with the two small ones. Something indoors where I don't have to spend a lot (or any!) money. So I am still working on that.<br /><br />Today went really smooth to start with. Things always seem to fall apart once I pick my oldest up from the bus stop. It's always a difficult process to make dinner. The 2 year old insists on helping me in kitchen...helping is not necessarily the right word for what she does! Anyway, tonight was no exception. I made <a href="http://greenlitebites.com/2010/10/21/deep-dish-crescent-pizza-casserole/">Deep Dish Crescent Pizza Casserole</a> that <a href="http://ronisweigh.com/">Roni</a> spoke so highly of. I subbed tomatoes for the mushrooms and I used turkey sausage. It was to die for! Oh I loved it! I don't usually like zucchini...ok, so I pretty much hate it. Except zucchini bread, but that's a whole other topic. Anyway, it turned out so yummy! The only person that didn't like it was the 2 year old, but she was really tired and when she gets tired she doesn't eat anything. Neika even liked it! Mine ended up browner on top, but it was delish. It will definitely go on my list of recipes to rotate through! I am loving all the new, healthy recipes I am getting from fellow bloggers and tweeties.<br /><br />I plan on working out tonight...possibly the 30 day shred once Sean is in bed. Either that or the EA Active. The shoe is still missing so I have to make due with the ones that are too big.<br /><br />Oh, and TOM has definitely arrived...trumpets blaring and banners waving arrived. Bummer. I guess it's not all that bad, but when it's been gone for 11 months it kinda sucks when it comes back! So I assume that the uptick this morning had to do with that. My size "16" jeans (which are actually 18) from Old Navy wouldn't stay up even with a belt. I was getting so annoyed with them. My mom and sister are both losing weight, they are about 10 pounds ahead of me (their in the 180s already, and both are taller than me). So my mom gave me 2 pairs of jeans. A real size 16 and a size 14. The 16 are perfect and the 14's are only a little snug.<br /><br />Well, I'm off to go workout...maybe I can get it in before I Sean goes to bed which will give me more time to knit later! I updated yesterdays numbers in my Challenge tab for the <a href="http://neversaynever27.blogspot.com/2010/10/33-day-challenge.html">33 Day Challenge.</a>Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-62651433064575013012010-10-24T18:06:00.000-07:002010-10-24T18:22:12.763-07:00The day is not over til it's overI had a rough day. So to speak. It wasn't rough as far as the challenge goes. Not really. The hubby got on my every last nerve since last night. I hate that!<br /><br />So last night I did manage to get about an hours worth of knitting done. I am hoping that with my goal to do it every day I might manage to actually finish this blanket. When I do I will post a pic so I can share it with everyone! Anyway, the hubby was on his computer until 2 am! So this meant that I didn't get any extra rest this morning, he needed it. He got it yesterday too. Typically we take turns on the weekend...one day he sleeps in, one day I sleep in. This time I didn't get any extra sleep at all! I was a little annoyed. But that wasn't the kicker...the kicker was when he got up and got right back on his computer! Now, we have a 2 year old and a 2 month old...you'd think he would do something to help! Ugh! However, I did not let my annoyance with him overflow into my eating. I ate really well all day today. I might have one more little snack this evening still, but I doubt it. The later it gets, the less likely I am to eat because I don't like eating too close to bedtime. The only thing that ended up being affected today was my workout. I was going to go to my mom's for a walk, but we ended up not walking. The 2 month old has had a tummy ache this afternoon/evening and I didn't get to do anything except try to comfort a screaming baby. He is finally sleeping in his swing at the moment, but I don't expect that to last very long!<br /><br />So all in all, the day wasn't lost. Healthy eating always makes me feel better! And I still have time to do some sort of workout, but I think I will take a day off and try again tomorrow. It's no big deal, yet. However, the day isn't done! There are still hours left for me to accomplish at least 2 more things! I plan on knitting for 30 minutes while watching a movie, maybe I will walk for 30 minutes first...<br /><br />I was at my mom's for dinner tonight since the hubby is at BWW for the Viking/Packer game. She made tilapia and rice. Yummy! I was going to make chicken and rice, so this was right up my alley for the evening. The only thing that would have made it better is if it were brown rice instead of white rice. Oh well. It was still good.<br /><br />I was amazed to see an almost 2 pound difference between today and yesterday on the scale, but it was definitely in the right direction! I only post my official weight on Saturday's, so I will just see if we can make it lower by then! For the <a href="http://neversaynever27.blogspot.com/2010/10/33-day-challenge.html">33 Day Challenge </a>I will record my weight daily, but I will only record pounds lost on Saturdays.<br /><br />Day 1 of 33 numbers:<br />CE 2/55<br />RT 0/15<br />CT 1/20<br />WL 0/8<br />PG1 1/33<br />PG2 1/22<br />PG3 1/33Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-69623057852552200592010-10-23T19:44:00.000-07:002010-10-23T19:57:14.949-07:00Day 1 of ChallengeThe mystery of the Disappearing Shoe saga continues today. Still is nowhere to be found! So this morning involved going to the in-laws house (where we used to live) to find an old pair of gym shoes. I found 2 pairs...a 7.5 and an 8.5...guess what size I am??? Yeah, that would be an 8. Go figure. So I went with the pair that was too big and tied them super tight. It worked out ok for what I needed them for today.<br /><br />So this morning I was very excited to report a 195.4 on the scale. Especially with TOM around, this number is still trending in the right direction. I haven't seen anything lower than that for way too long! I am really excited to be farther away from the 200s these days. I can't wait until I just never see that number again (sometimes it pops up after a bad few days of extra sodium). Anyway, I woke up super pumped to do this challenge. There is just something about doing a challenge with other people that keeps me more motivated. Yesterday I posted <a href="http://emily-myjourneytoahealthierme.blogspot.com/2010/10/goals-for-new-challenge.html">my goals</a> for the <a href="http://neversaynever27.blogspot.com/2010/10/33-day-challenge.html">Healthier Me in 33 challenge</a>. Today I managed to convince the hubby that we really needed to get out of the house. Our 2 year old is too in love with the television these days, so I really wanted to do something out of the house. So we loaded the kids up (just the younger 2 today) and headed to the inlaws (because I HAD to have shoes!). By their house is a great path beside the lake and a great park, so we took the long way around to get to the park. All in all I walked about an hour. And at a good pace, not some liesurely walk. And there were hills. Several of them. I was pushing the stroller. I felt like I got a great workout in with that walk. I wish I could run, but the doc recommended not yet, so walking it is! I will begin running again once my knees don't hurt. So I count this as one of my cardio goals. :)<br /><br />Food was pretty good today. I did have 2 healthy eats, breakfast and dinner. I am not too sure about lunch as it was provided my mother in law. She made turkey chili and I had about a cup and a half. It was pretty yummy. I ended up having too much cheese during that meal, making my calories pretty high for lunch, but I still think I did pretty well! We also had my grandpa's 80th birthday and their 60th wedding anniversary party to go to. I had one very small piece of cake there. Nothing overboard. So I am feeling pretty good about myself! As soon as I am done here, I am off to work on my knitting project :) I am almost done with this blanket that I have been working on for about 6 months now. I can't wait to finish it and start working on the one for my little man!Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-75934854256325936922010-10-22T19:55:00.001-07:002010-10-22T20:02:29.841-07:00Goals for new challengeOk, so I thought about some different goals for Samantha's <a href="http://neversaynever27.blogspot.com/2010/10/33-day-challenge.html?spref=tw">33 Day Challenge</a> and I came up with one's that I think are doable for me. I may have to invest in a new pair of shoes since one of my $130 pair of Nike shoes has mysteriously disappeared. The hubby and I are completely dumbfounded about this. We have completely torn apart the basement trying to find it. Grrr. I am sooo frustrated about this! But I will not let this keep me from meeting my goals. I will see if I can find my old gym shoes to use...I don't even know if they will fit! They are still over at the old house...<br /><br />Anyway! Here are the goals that I have set for the next 33 days :)<br /><br />Clean Eats 0/55/66<br />Resistance Training 0/15<br />Cardio Training 0/20<br />Weight Loss 0/8<br />Personal Goal 1 Knitting at least 30 minutes a day 0/33<br />Personal Goal 2 Do one active thing with the kids during the week 0/22<br />Personal Goal 3 Blog daily 0/33<br /><br />Now knowing how I feel about challenges I am going to focus and give it my all. I know that there a few other amazing women participating in this challenge as well which should make it more motivating! I look forward to tweeting my progress daily and blogging my successes. Here's to a great 33 days!!!Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-58951118397745429052010-10-22T15:59:00.000-07:002010-10-22T16:10:28.860-07:00I wonder no longer :)So I did eventually figure out why I was a bottomless pit yesterday!<br /><br />There is good news and bad news...but mostly good news.<br /><br />So the bad news is that having the Mirena placed triggered my "time of the month" (TOM). This is bad news because I am nursing and I was REALLY hoping it would stay away for 6 months like it did last time. Oh well. It's not horrible, it's just not great. Good news is that TOM explains why I was starving all day yesterday! It totally makes sense. I had cramps this morning but the other good news is because of the Mirena, TOM is really, really, really light. Like I almost didn't even notice light. I can totally handle this! More good news: the scale showed almost a 3 pound difference since yesterday morning. Which means all the weight I thought I gained was indeed water weight. Awesome! I feel so much better about all this! In the bad news department....I still can't find my other shoe!! Geez!<br /><br />However, I did go for a short, liesurely walk with the kids. It wasn't much, but at least it was something! I did enjoy being outside. I will try and take them out tomorrow in the new double stroller. I also heard about a <a href="http://neversaynever27.blogspot.com/2010/10/33-day-challenge.html?spref=tw">33 Day Challenge</a> that I am absolutely looking forward to! I need to write out some goals for myself and I will post them later tonight. I am really excited to be part of this challenge! I know, I know, I usually hate challenges. I still hate them. This one I willing to go for. Not sure what makes this one different. I do know that I am going to give it all I've got and if I stumble one day then I will move on and try harder the next day. I just really need to find my shoe! Either that or find a yoga DVD to do so I don't need shoes :)Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-70190771085741268122010-10-21T18:54:00.000-07:002010-10-21T19:03:01.743-07:00I wonder...Two weeks ago I was feeling absolutely satisfied with my food choices. I wasn't hungry after eating a meal, and I didn't feel the need to go back for seconds.<br /><br />This week it doesn't seem to matter how much I eat. I feel like a bottomless pit.<br /><br />The difference?? Well on Monday I had the Mirena put in. I know that one of the "side effects" can be weight gain. I happen to disagree with this. Weight gain shouldn't be a side effect unless it makes you gain water weight which is completely out of your control. I think it should be "causes excessive hunger". That makes more sense to me. This means that even though it makes me feel hungry, I have to ability to keep myself from eating myself silly. It doesn't make it any easier to do though.<br /><br />So today I lost the fight with the ice cream. It's gone now, so the temptation is gone. I had a great breakfast, a great lunch, but then I was starving all day. I had a small piece of cake after lunch. I have actually been chewing Extra gum in order to keep myself from munching all afternoon! I know that I am eating enough, so I am not worried about that. I just don't want to overeat. I don't like not being satisfied. I wonder if that internal switch that says "STOP! You're full!" will come back once I become used to the hormones. Or maybe it will just be a constant struggle to lose weight with the IUD. Either way, it's much better than me being sick all the time and feeling like I'm losing it like when I am on the pill. So I will continue to log my food (I stopped since last Thursday...oops!) for the rest of the week and see if things get better. Knowledge is half the battle, and if I KNOW that I am extra hungry due to hormones, I can try and do things to distract myself.<br /><br />I also tried to go for a walk today. This ended up being impossible as one of my running shoes has disappeared. It's gone. No clue where to find it. I keep them on the treadmill since that's the only time I use them is for a workout. And I could only find one. They were there on Saturday. I was really really frustrated as I do not own another pair of shoes suitable for walking or running. So the hunt continues...Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-35562440469517344862010-10-20T08:57:00.000-07:002010-10-20T09:09:20.442-07:00Rough weekendIt all started Friday night...<br /><br />I had been cleaning all day. Lost track of time and went way too long without eating. Realized I was starving (so was Elise, she was waaay crabby!). The hubby was calling, on his way home from work. I was in no frame of mind to cook. Period. So we ordered pizza. First of all, waiting that long to eat is a bad idea because it takes too long for my body to register there is food in it, so I tend to overeat. Second, having pizza to fill that very empty tummy is bad news! I of course overate. Plus, with all the sodium in pizza I showed a huge gain overnight. Now I KNOW it was just the sodium, but it didn't make me feel any better about myself.<br /><br />So Saturday was the birthday party for my girls. I made sure the hubby bought a veggie tray and fruit tray along with other snacks so there would be something healthy to eat. Ummm, yeah. Didn't even touch the veggies! I had some fruit, but the chex mix was awesome :( So I ate that. I also had two pieces of cake...that's what happens when there are two cakes to choose from. You just have a piece of each! I was so sick to my stomach Saturday night. You would think I had learned my lesson. But oh no...of course not. I had leftover cake on Sunday along with a couple scoops of ice cream. My eating has seriously taken a nose dive. So far today I am doing well, the only thing off track that I have had is a handful of candy corn. But I will write it down and be accountable for it.<br /><br />I also haven't been working out. Now at least there is a semi-sort of good excuse for thise one. Friday was my rest day, so I cleaned all day. The last week or so, my right knee has been bothering me. A lot. And I am not wanting to risk injuring it. So I took Saturday and Sunday off. I asked my doc about it on Monday since I was already there for something else. He thinks it's me starting with too much too fast at a a weight my body just isn't used to. Ok, I can understand that. But I am only about 10-15 pounds heavier now than the last time I starting working out and running...so I am not sure what to think about that. He told me that I need to start with just walking. Bleh. Walking can get boring for me. Unless it's outside. So I didn't do anything Monday or Tuesday. So far I haven't done anything today yet either. I am a little depressed that I can't run...I know it doesn't mean I should do nothing. But it is hard for me to be motivated right now. The scale showed a 4 pound gain since Friday. Now I don't know how much of it is water weight and how much is real weight, but it sucks. I don't want to be this way anymore! And I am really just struggling right now.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-42422254549337285522010-10-14T08:37:00.000-07:002010-10-14T13:08:21.573-07:00Got it done early todayWell I managed to sneak in my workout during the naps today. I did EA Active and a 2 mile run. I almost didn't get to do the run and then it kept getting interrupted for potty breaks (the 2 year old had to go potty, twice). But I got it done. And I feel great! I ran more today than I have before...I think. Out of the 2 miles I ran 1.2 miles of it. In intervals of course. I still can't do more than half a mile at a time for running. But I am getting better. I was able to run a little faster today.<br /><br />Eating has been great so far. I plan on having my stuffed pepper leftovers f0r dinner tonight while the hubby has the leftover pork sandwhiches. Both sound really yummy right now. I am always really hungry after a workout, but I never know what to eat! I know I need proteins and sugars, but I am not sure what the best thing is. I usually end up eating several small things before I feel even remotely satisfied. Like today I had 2 hard boiled eggs, a cup of fruit, and string cheese. This a great snack for me. But after a run it just doesn't cut it. What do others eat after a great workout??Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-16823477632791374562010-10-13T19:17:00.000-07:002010-10-13T19:27:51.587-07:00A good day<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcWpXK3TULhSOUGnNVHA-7GlMCZrwR-O6Mwjr_T8nEdz99iNOedzrT2E93vG2Rzh_vTkp8p1q93SXHYbxaqWde4vyxISvdq29dmsVtiEYl704A49HB6MxMhqOVzyLWLZCuXMO_29xtkGfy/s1600/IMG_1487.JPG"></a><br /><div>Today I did well.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>I ate healthily all day long, whith one bite of cake top from my mom's house as I walked out the door. I didn't take any the whole time I was there, so I had one tiny bite while I was leaving. My mom decorates cakes so there is always cake tops that she just throws away...and they are my favorite part! So it was awesome that I was able to walk past them and not have a bowl full! I am sure it sounds odd, but it is what it is. Anyway, I tried a new recipe for dinner tonight. The total calorie count was 620 for these stuffed peppers, but they would have been less if I had ground turkey instead of ground beef and if I had used 6 peppers instead of 4. But they were really yummy! I took a picture and was going to post it, but it didn't turn out as well I had wanted. It definitely doesn't do it justice. I am just starting to photo document some of my foods, which is kind of fun. I kept forgetting to do it until after I ate half of it. I also seem to not get a good angle and the food looks really gross in the pictures. I took the time to hard boil eggs today so that I would have another option for a snack. Today I had 2 with a cup of fruit. It was a perfect amount. I ended up staying under my calorie goal today, which seems to be a good goal for me with nursing. I am still losing weight (slowly) and my milk doesn't seem to be affected. I think I have my goal between 2200-2400, so I think I will cut it to 2000-2200 and see how that goes. It's weird to eat so much and yet still be losing! I love it! Except the days where I have a hard time eating enough...and it does happen.</div><div> </div><div>I did manage to get an EA Active workout in. I missed yesterday so I did yesterdays workout today. So I believe that puts me at Day 5 today. It was tough, not gonna lie. I had to do squat jumps and lunge jumps...my thighs were burning! It's a great feeling :) Nothing beats a great workout! Oh, I just realized I didn't stretch...I should probably go do that right now! (I just finished my workout). Hope everyone had a great Wednesday!</div><br /><div></div>Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2718628061981634012.post-90513646951401433332010-10-12T20:25:00.000-07:002010-10-12T20:35:07.736-07:00A learning processI did not respect my body today.<br /><br />Am I disappointed? Yes. Will it affect me negatively going forward? No.<br /><br />I did not respect my body today by putting food in it that wasn't needed to fuel my body. No, I ate food that tasted good but that my body doesn't need. It doesn't deserve to be treated like this anymore. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to fuel my body with nutritous, whole foods. I deserve to have a fit body. My deserves to be worked out in order to keep it in working shape. I ended up skipping my workout so I could watch the Biggest Loser. Afterwards I did realize that this might have been a good decision as my knees are bother me a bit, so the day of rest might not have been awful.<br /><br />This morning I ate breakfast on my way to my MOPS meeting. I brought fresh fruit since it was my tables turn to bring food. I figured if I ate breakfast I would be less tempted to eat all the other goodies there. While at the store I found these little yummy two bite caramel toffee scones. Mmmm. I should have left them there! I ended up eating a huge plateful of food anyway. And then when the container of scones was almost completely full I had to bring it home with me. I am pretty sure I ate 3/4 of that container. Maybe a little less, but not by much. I also ate a huge salad at my mom's house. I also ate dinner because I knew skipping a meal is just as disrespectful to my body as cramming it full of crap.<br /><br />I refuse to say today was failure. Why? Because with every mistake made, knowledge is gained. I am learning what it is to respect my body. I am working on chaging my thinking about what I "deserve". I deserve health. This is a hard way to think when you are taught to think that sweets and desserts are "treats" or rewards for when you are good. Why should I reward myself with something that will eventually harm me?? How did we all come to think that we deserve to treat ourselves like crap? I am tired of feeling sluggish and tired. I love the energy I feel after a great workout and eating well. So no, today was not a failure. It was a learning opportunity and I will continue on tomorrow as I usually would. I will have my reallly yummy nutritious breakfast and I will workout, and I will run. I will feel great! I will because that is what I deserve :)Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12093894851237229919noreply@blogger.com0